Wednesday, March 11, 2009

a reason... a season... or a lifetime...



People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.

When someone is in your life for a REASON...

It is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered. And now it is time to move on.

Then people come into your life for a SEASON...

Because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.

LIFETIME...

Then there are those who teach us lifetime lessons... things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind, but friendship is clairvoyant.

THANK YOU for being a part of my life!

"... work like you don't need the money...
... love like you've never been hurt...
... and dance like no one is watching."

Love wins.
:)*
jillY

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

tears and rain


tears and rain

There is none that can break past this exterior hard coated barrier I shield my heart with...

... this is what I try to make people believe… what I try to believe myself… that... i am a rock... i am an island...

truth...

the truth is... that... I have a distorted life… a life uncommon… a life of struggle... hardships... and a trail of tears…
... I am one in a million… literally... physically... statically…


truth...

She never had her "first time." ... an ex-friend stole that experience from her; raped at the age of 18... she lost a large part of herself... part of her heart... and part of her soul in those events of that terrible night... stolen alongside her innocence... was her dream of ever experiencing that first moment with someone special... someone she was saving herself for... an experience she has lived... cried... and grieved for over 21 years now... because of this… she really doesn’t know... how to trust... anyone.

despite it all... she does know how to forgive... how to move on... how to rise above such hardships... how to succeed... and most importantly how to not let it kill her completely... how to let the rain wash away the tears...

she is... certainly... one of the most loyal friends you will ever have... as a sibling... best friend... relative... and child... she would lay down her life for you... she will forever... truly... deeply... openly... affectionately... and completely... love you...


... because when all is said and done... i believe in love... and love wins.

– j. marshon

a soldier's quite mind


a soldier's quite mind

a poem of sacrifice that soldiers must endure... my heart goes out to our soldiers; their work to keep us here safe and free... freedom does come at a cost... our soldiers know this; and lay down their lives for it. Godspeed USA soldiers!
just a civilian poem...


somnolent soldier

sadness fills my heart as you are half a world away…
so grateful for your sacrifice…
… so sad upon your return…

how i wish i could take war away from you…
blind your eyes and mind from the pain, gore, and cruelty exposed…
allow these things to disappear from your deportment forever…

how do you move forward with such embedded horror branded; imprinted on your ever-being…

how do you return to simply take your place among the bang and clatter…
the monotonous march of the civilian…

certainly, it must be one of the most difficult things you've done…
one of the most difficult things you'll continue to do…
… a forbearing lifelong consequence…

let me try… allow me to take a portion… any amount… away from you…
let me carry some of your burden…
… you endured for me…
let me cradle your beautiful face in my hands
… let me look at you… into your eyes… dive into the depths of your soul
carry you home…

an open vessel awaits… return through me…
i give you my heart to absorb your wounds…
… be still somnolent soldier…

- j. marshon

Monday, March 2, 2009

love's stronghold



i have my reasons…
erase my paths…
bury my thoughts…

for there is no single thought mine alone…

always reminding me how naive… stupid i am… so easily played…
… i hate to admit… but, often he is right…

… claims is protecting me…
… controls me…
still…

… i will never be free…