i picked you

calling you;
blue october

this song exemplifies how i felt about my first, one, and only love in college; the man who became my husband of thirteen years... at age twenty it is hard to understand the boundaries and feelings involved when one falls so madly, deeply and crazy in love... the kind of love that makes you completely lose sense and sensibility... the kind of love that blindsides you and inflicts unknowing ramifications on each other's sanity, needs and responsibilities...

i was so in love with you... i was so driven by that 'crazy' love... almost obsessed one could say... a love unlike anything i've ever known prior to; or ever since... one of those controlling, 'i cant live without you' loves... desperate and obsessive, lustful and everlasting... a love so deep that many people never ever even get a glimpse of during their lifetime...

we broke up because this love was too intense... and although we eventually came back together... for better or for worse... something was lost in the process...

this song is about that one of a kind love... the lyrics are incredible... the intense live version of this song is amazing... as is the beautiful soft dreamy version...

i’m thankful to have experienced such an amazing, terrible, incredible love... and sad for it's enviable end...

i will always love you my timothy james.

- j. marshon